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I'm trying with all my might to hold it together.
I'm not ok. 
I'm not the same person that I was before.
I have lost a part of myself and I will NEVER be the same.
I am sorry if that is something you can not handle.
I will try harder.
I have to be strong for her.  She still needs a mother.
I will try to be strong for him as well.
It still hurts.
It hurts more and more each day.
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