By the way.... I WON I WON I WON! I couldn't be more excited about 25 days of giveaways.. AND the fact that I ACTUALLY won an AMAZING (amazing amazing amazing) gift. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!! I seriously can not wait to receive the canvas of Sebastion's last ultrasound in the mail so that I can cry as I hang it up in our home. Not that I'm looking forward to the crying part, it's just inevitable. I cried in wal-mart the other day as I was in the craft department... stoooopid christmas music. (ok, I was also looking at the most perfect scrapbooking set: newborn baby boy, complete with giraffes) The waterworks just came a flowing, and random people were staring at me like a crazy person. Go figure. One of these days I am going to explode on an inocent bistander, and then, when I'm finished screaming and crying... I will laugh. And it will feel good.
I'm trying really hard to come up with the PERFECT gift for my Faces of Loss, Faces of Hope gift exchange partner... I now have less than a week to get it mailed out, and haven't even started making it, nor purchased the supplies to do so... would probably help if I could make a decision as to what I'm planning... Apparently I am indecisive. Extemely indecisive.
Beer and Pizza are yummy... pain pills, at times are necessary. This would be one of those times. I am still questioning the decision to take birth control pills. For some reason, even though they are intended to REGULATE periods, this is the second time in the past 3 months that I have started over a week EARLY. WTF? and last month, I was a few days late...what gives? I think I was regulated more with out the darn things. And every time I swallow one of the mini little baby preventers... I stare at it and think, "Why?" Why the hell am I killing my chances of having another baby? Damn it. I want Sebastion back!!!
After a week, we finally managed to take Sebastion's tree out to the cemetary. They actually make solar powered strands of LED christmas lights...who knew??? I can't wait to see what the tree looks like when it is actually lit up:)
|One of MANY tiny ornaments|
|Daddy securing the tree so it won't blow over|
|Love you baby boy...|